Empty

Emptiness... That's what i see

No matter black or white, without any color, it's just empty

Lonely... No matter wide or tiny place, it's just loneliness

The sky is very vast up there

Blue in the day and dark in the night

Dunno why, i just feel comfortable

Maybe because i don't want anybody messing around

Maybe because friendship isn't eternal

Maybe because our dimensions are different

I don't know why, i just feel comfort in this silent

I know that silent means nothing...

We just thinking, not doing

We get emptiness from emptiness, and loneliness from loneliness

But i rather choose this one

I don't want anybody take my breath

Maybe that's why i don't like...

No reason to like?

If somebody take my freedom, so who am i?

Anybody suggested me to leave that world

But i can't ...

I can stay alive if i leave this world

I know that this world actually torture me

But i just can't

I can't leave this dark

I can't leave this white

I ever tried, to get into their position... Fail

Separated by dimension

I live in different world and being isolated in a dark room

Where there is nothing to do

No problem for me, and i prefer being isolated

Like a cup of coffee, bitter, but tasty

Not freshening but relaxing

As long as i believe there will be a candle and a door

Soon, i can go out from here

Thank you for anyone who give me this cup of coffee

But...

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..

.

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Will you be the milk and sweetened my life and unite our world?

Merry Christmas!! Happy New Year!!

Cring cring criiiingg

Jingle Bell!

Merry Christmas all!

That's what we hear around today! Yeah, today is Christmas night, do you know what should we do during Christmas night? There's so many thing, let see, for an example, we have Christmas party at a villa with our friends like in anime, having dinner with our family etc.

Actually, what is Christmas? generally people taught that Christmas = birthday of Jesus...

I agree, at least until 6PM today... At the Christmas mass today, i know what Christmas really is!

According to the homily today, Christmas isn't celebrated by the early Church until about 3rd/4th century. The king of Rome that time, Constantine, become Catholic/ Christian and decided to announce that Catholic/ Christian wasn't a sect from Jewish, but an official religion. At that time, many people were baptized and become Catholic/ Christian.

Why i tell you that story?

Jesus born in this world in the past where there was no birth document that time. We don't know exactly when the birth of Jesus. But, as our savior, we believe that Jesus came into this world as our savior and bright Light of heaven, justice, love, etc.

So, what is the relation of the stories that i told to you?

The 1st story told about many people were baptized that time, it means, Jesus, as the Light of love appear and came into this world that time, although He always stay by our side, but that time as the real prove! Jesus came as light, that was same as the event when He was born in this world.

Regardless the story i had told to you, we believe that Christmas as the day we celebrated the coming of True Light, Eternal Light, Heavenly Light, Light of Love, Light of Justice, King of the king, our Lord, Jesus Christ!

And we must do the same thing as Him, we must become kind person, humble, and loving each other and lived in a peace and joy!

Lastly, MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012!!

"Johan-sama! Merii Kurisumasu!" Hikari shouted loud

Ah, thanks! Merry Christmas all!

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"Are you okay son?" that's the first sentence the i heard, it was my mother's voice.

"uugghh..."

"it's okay, don't get up"

"Where... akh... are we?" i felt really dizzy, i didn't really sure what am i talking about that time

"In hospital, you were hit by a truck"

Suddenly, a man with blue glasses came, i taught he was a doctor. He whispered at my mother and her face became so pale.

"i understand, thank you" she said

"What's happen?"

"Nothing son, everything is ok"

Surely there was something about me... My mother lefted at 9PM...

I had a headache but i couldn't sleep, there was something inside me that i felt it would explode.

*Graakk

The door opened, a white coated man got into my room.

"You!"

"Calm down..." his voice was different with the man in my dream, yeah just taught it was a dream.

"What do you want from me!?"

"Nothing, you're useless, at least for me"

"What do you mean!?"

"Just wait and see what will happens"

"What do you mean!?"

"You know, you're really annoying, you said what do you mean twice with interval no more than 30 seconds"

"I don't care! Why my parents still alive!?"

"You want they died? i can kill them now"

"I don't mean like that!"

"Huh... just wait, you'll meet many kind people in a cruel destiny of yours"

"Wha.."

"I don't want you to say that sentences again, just wait"

He disappeared

"WAIT! akkhh..." my wounds became so hurt, my head felt so dizzy, and i didn't remember what happen next

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